Trauma is a tricky thing. It rewires the brain in a way that you can actually live your entire life believing things like you are not smart enough, capable, worthy or deserving. Hiding behind your fear and insecurities desiring so much more, but being too afraid to step out and claim that. My Mom showed me how unhealed trauma manifests into self sabotage and living a life where you're not living, instead you're just trying to survive. My Dad, taught me how to pull myself up by my boot straps, work ethic and perseverance, and that eventually everything will work itself out you just have to keep showing up. Without being consciously aware of it at the time I knew that in order to succeed you needed the right mindset, beliefs and to show up consistently no matter your circumstances. I also always knew that everyone was doing the best they could with what they had. Each part of my life, involved some level and experience of trauma. I sat down once to write out everything I had overcome and it was over 100 things. I think many people who know me, they would say I am out living my best life. Im the kind of person who can put their mind to something and actually achieve it. That I have nothing holding me back. Ive heard "wow, I could never do that", "if anyone can do it its you". But, whats not seen is that for every single thing accomplished it was because I won the fight with the inner critics, deep fears trying to hold me back and sometimes anxiety thru the roof. I had decided that I was at cause of my life and not in effect. Meaning I got to choose how I responded, how I showed up. I consistently found the edges of my comfort zone and chose to push past them. For example at my first full Ironman, as everyone was going in the water, I was slowly backing away. A man kept encouraging me to go, even telling a volunteer to help me. I stood there crying afraid to get in the water (honestly I wasn't sure I would get in, let alone swim for over an hour and a half), I asked her for a hug, and then I just got in, and I cried through every breath until I didn't and found peace there in the water. I was insanely proud of myself and finished that 1.5 hour swim before heading out on the bike. I got injured out on the bike around 80 miles and didn't make it to the run, but went on to finish an Ironman a year later.

"i was made to show and inspire individuals how to become the best version of themselves, through the fear and doubt, while pursuing the kind of life they actually want... one with abundant freedom, joy, love and peace."

They say if you have a vision of something you desire its because its actually already yours. You just have to take the action toward it, and be able to have the capacity to allow it, the energy to receive it. At 40 I let go of a multi six figure business as a photographer to pursue a dream to have a career in personal development. They say that when you make a leap like this the universe will test you to see how serious you are. And in my final year, covid hit. And from there it was just one thing after another trying to tell me to go back and be safe. But, no. Sorry universe. If you haven't learned yet, I am a no plan B kinda girl. So I proceeded. I realized this was a whole different level of comfort zone to be crossed. I healed so much trauma through my coaching certification, I over came so many limited beliefs. I grew so much stronger, gained so much confidence, self acceptance and awareness through it all. While I thought I was going to be helping woman passionately purse their goals. I found myself actually becoming so much more than that.

I was lead to a program that taught me so much more about the science of the brain, the nervous system. And how to truly allow yourself to BELIEVE in what's POSSIBLE. To "rewire" the mind to support you, to release the negative emotions around trauma, to release the fear on a deep subconscious level. During my training I had remembered that at around 10 years old I had I told my dad I wanted to be a brain surgeon; because I wanted to go into my mom's brain, and just do some rewiring. And here I was learning exactly that. I wish I had these tools and this healing so much earlier because life didn't have to be as hard as it was. But, I now know that the desire I had to help others when I was so little and the inner knowledge I had at 10 was because I was made to show and inspire individuals how to find resilience and healing to become the best version of themselves while pursuing the kind of life they actually want.... one with abundant freedom, joy, love and peace.